by Maddison Goetting

It’s been a month, God. I gave up the silly social media for a month. It was harder than I thought it would be. Maybe hard is the wrong word. Frustrating. Annoying. Like somehow I thought my life had more purpose because I was letting people know what I was doing. Or that my life was valued by how many retweets or likes I got. Such a pathetic thing to desire. Yet very human.

I was trying to let people know that I was happy and perfectly content without some of them. I know I am. And You know that too. So why does it really matter if those people know if I am happy or not. Why should I go out of my way to prove something as petty as that? Seems dumb. Social media made me dumb and most of all, it made me lose focus on my goals. And I think being away for a month made me see it in different light. I don’t need twitter – but it’s not a bad thing to have. As long as I have my priorities straight.

I shouldn’t forget You, God. I think that’s satan’s favorite strategy. Not to make us hate you. Or not believe in You. But to forget you. Because nothing hurts worse than to be forgotten by someone you love and care so much about. I’ve felt that feeling. And if it sucked for me, I can’t imagine how that makes You feel when all of us just… Forget You. Forget to call. Forget to listen. We just let you slowly fade out and fill it in with fleshy desires.

I’m so sorry God. I’m sorry I do that. I’m sorry for all who do it everyday. What a tragedy to forget the One who made you.

I remember you God. I remember Your unconditional love. It’s slowly coming back to me. Like a small fuzzy memory in the back of my head.

I think I’m slowly remembering who I am.

Love,

Maddison Goetting